nathangoesbonkers is my baby and I want everyone to know that.

As an up and coming psychologist ( I mean, I have several years of school left), I’d like to say that I like to conduct my own research and experiment outside the accepted ideas of psychology cause when you know something so well, why not bend it a bit?

Psychology is a never ending puzzle but I also feel like it’s really abused today. I mean, come on. Not only are people judging others for their disorders/labels, but the ones being judged are also using the labels on themselves as an excuse for several different things - doesn’t matter what - just know that you are trapping yourself in a box.

If you are a person that was born and diagnosed under the Autistic Spectrum, then I apologize if your parents treated you like absolute idiots from then on out. If you are a person looking for answers to understand yourself then trying to self diagnose won’t make the problems go away.

Psychology is purely for understanding others, and yet here we are, as usual, using it as a weapon. Everything’s a fucking weapon with you god damn animals! Anywho - Yeah, understanding.

But half the time, when people aren’t familiar with things that deviate entirely from what they know, they tend to not like said things and write it off as some weird shit. 

Or honestly, a lot of the time, people usually decide to not like things or individuals because they seem themselves in them. We are constantly looking for reflections in others, and so sometimes, we don’t like what we find.

Well get the hell over it for fuck’s sake. Then again, it’s not your fault little tumblees. We are taught to be selfless and yet not how to effectively pull it off. Being selfless does NOT, I repeat NOT, mean to ignore yourself and your needs, and your wants. Look, I want you to think of it this way, if you want to help people, then how the fuck are you supposed to do that if you don’t know how to help yourself? I mean, Jesus tap dancing CHRIST.

In my most recent studies, I have found christianity encourages a lot of  ”self-ignorance”. Self indulgence is apparently one of the worst sins ever created in the space and time of humanity - and yet this all loving and jealous God wants you to always fucking give and give and give. Why didn’t he get one of his bitches to elaborate on “Do unto others as  you want others to do unto you”? 

And in regards to self-indulgence, it seems like a lot of you just assume that means having retarded and meaningless fun. Getting shitfaced weekend after weekend, laying how many dudettes/dudes as you want, and sniffing Aderol are not the only ways you can “let loose”. But as usual, it’s not all of humanity’s fault that we have learned to reject what we truly love.

Self-indulgence starts at a very simple point: Acceptance, creativity, love and honesty.

• Acceptance: This means never having to say sorry to yourself. This means enjoying the fact you love the color purple, or that you can never get enough of Homestuck. There is nothing wrong with wanting to wear neon green to school or picking your nose. These social “rules” are just that, RULES that some prick made up a long time ago. Learn in what way it is to “be you” and enjoy the ride. Your real friends will revel in your personality, and the fake ones will try to change you - fuck them, seriously.
• Creativity: Don’t be afraid to act on any strange whim you have. If you want to kiss someone on the cheek, no matter what your relationship status is or what “gender” you are, then fucking do it! Learn to listen to your inner being and soul - these are where the lovely and rewarding desires live. Just because you were born a girl, doesn’t mean you can’t have a best friend that’s a dude and like Tonka trucks, and playing in the mud. Genders are restraints just as much as social rules, don’t be afraid to create a personality that your proud of, just like you would an art work - cause let me tell you, the ones that have connected with people, are the art works that are not at all logical but purely emotional and genuine. So, please, paint away on your personality~
• Love: Oh yes, Love. What a fickle subject and here’s the first thing I want to point out. For all you forlorn teenagers looking for that perfect love constantly, LISTEN UP: You’ll never find that love because it’s the love you aren’t getting from yourself. No one can give you that love, only you and until you do give yourself that love - your relationships will be difficult. Self-Love is at the center of almost everything. How you deal with life, with people, with your dreams & ambiotions, EVERYTHING. If you don’t love yourself, and accept yourself then you are literally shit out of luck. There isn’t anything particularly bad about you that isn’t worth loving. You are your best friend, you are the only person you can rely on at the end of the day, and so working against yourself is very country productive and will literally get you no special direction except “lost”. There’s nothing wrong with being lost from time to time, but don’t be so hard on yourself - you’re you, no one has been you before and you should harness your power of you and do what you are most passionate about.
• Honesty: Be honest with yourself. About everything. Don’t be afraid to search and explore your mind to find the answers to “why”, whatever why may be. They mostly teach us to critically think, to really chew on something before we really swallow a concept, but that also applies to you. If you don’t like something about yourself, or you’re concerned about it, then ask what is it that makes you do that or why do you want to do that to make sure if it’s a genuine feeling or desire. Don’t ignore your body. If you don’t want to do something, then don’t do it. That’s how you end up hurt. And also, expectations on people or yourself are lies. They are things to make you sad cause no one can live to your expectations and you can’t always either. So stop using expectations as hopes and use them as preparations over things you can’t always control.

Anyway. That’s enough from me. I just wanted to talk about this for a bit cause I love it and I love all of you even though I don’t know who you are and why you are the way you are but I do love you. It’s hard not to love anyone once you realize we all have a bit of each other in our souls and we all go through the human condition. So, just chill the fuck out and be friends and stop judging people cause all you’re actually doing is announcing that something makes you feel so insecure that you have to make fun of it. Okay? That’s all I ever hear when people say mean shit about people - just people voicing their own insecurities.

I AM DONE, I SWEAR I AM DONE.

I would say I’m trying to do my best based off my own ideas of the human condition, honesty & Love. But nevertheless, it is never enough. I wish People didn’t have to experience the fear of losing valuable people/items - everyone would be a lot happier - I figure.

I don’t usually wish for any part of the human condition to be absent - but this seems like the bane of everyone’s existence.

Losing something. And there’s nothing I can do about it.

I guess all I can do is try to practice this in my own life and not fear - for fear is the downfall of us all.